Friday, October 3, 2025

The Crown Too Heavy


Once upon a time, a little girl was handed a crown.

It was dazzling, golden, studded with ambition — a crown meant for Everest.


Her father placed it on her head with love.

He saw her strength before she even knew her own name.

He wanted to protect her, to lift her high, to make her untouchable in a world that can be cruel.


But the crown was heavy.

Her neck was still soft, her shoulders small, her spirit tender.

She tried to walk, but it cut into her skin.

She thought: “Why would he give me something that hurts me so much?”

She stumbled. She resented him. She longed for a simpler, lighter life.


Years passed. The girl was tested — by mountains of exams, valleys of heartbreak, storms of pressure.

She burned, she broke, she healed. She learned to breathe, to steady her steps, to listen to her own rhythm.


And one day, she lifted the crown again.

This time, her neck was strong. Her shoulders broad. Her heart wise.

She realised: “The crown was never the problem. The timing was.”


Now, she places it on herself — not because he gave it,

but because she knows it belongs to her.

It no longer feels like a punishment. It feels like her own name.


She was always meant for Everest.

The crown fits her perfectly now.

Wednesday, October 1, 2025

Let me create

 Something i wrote in 2015..cant believe myself at times..


Let me create

There are days I wake up

When I want to do something with my bare hands

Build something, create something from scratch

Toil in it, sweat and pant

Do something so consuming that it takes all the sense of time and reality from me

Something to consume me physically, emotionally, spiritually, intellectually

Am looking for experience – no job, no career, no amount of partying or sexual activity can replace it

Something for which I would take a bullet

Something heroic

Something for which I would leave my loved ones behind

Something which would make me cheat, lie, deceive, scheme

Something for which I could consider killing

A task with the passion of a fanatic

The nurturing of a mother

The protection of a father

Something I can put my whole soul into

Sit back and have a look on what I have created

Yes I want to create

Something with my bare hands

Something which leaves scars

Something which gives me real tears of pain

Something which shows me what is true fear, for I haven’t felt afraid in a long time

Something which fills me with a naïve hope, so used to the ways of the world I haven’t felt naïve in a long time

Something humane, something primal

Away from the sophistication and peace of my modern and intellectual lifestyle

Am not looking for comfort and happiness, I have had enough of it

Am looking for rage, fear, tears, pain, sweat, anger, hatred, disgust, disappointment

Am looking for exhilaration, joy, love, epiphany, pride, glory, honour

Am a human, let me be primal once and create something.

Yours Sincerely,

A knowledge worker