Let me create

 Something i wrote in 2015..cant believe myself at times..

Let me create

There are days I wake up

When I want to do something with my bare hands

Build something, create something from scratch

Toil in it, sweat and pant

Do something so consuming that it takes all the sense of time and reality from me

Something to consume me physically, emotionally, spiritually, intellectually

Am looking for experience – no job, no career, no amount of partying or sexual activity can replace it

Something for which I would take a bullet

Something heroic

Something for which I would leave my loved ones behind

Something which would make me cheat, lie, deceive, scheme

Something for which I could consider killing

A task with the passion of a fanatic

The nurturing of a mother

The protection of a father

Something I can put my whole soul into

Sit back and have a look on what I have created

Yes I want to create

Something with my bare hands

Something which leaves scars

Something which gives me real tears of pain

Something which shows me what is true fear, for I haven’t felt afraid in a long time

Something which fills me with a naïve hope, so used to the ways of the world I haven’t felt naïve in a long time

Something humane, something primal

Away from the sophistication and peace of my modern and intellectual lifestyle

Am not looking for comfort and happiness, I have had enough of it

Am looking for rage, fear, tears, pain, sweat, anger, hatred, disgust, disappointment

Am looking for exhilaration, joy, love, epiphany, pride, glory, honour

Am a human, let me be primal once and create something.

Yours Sincerely,

A knowledge worker