The light of fear

 

“Wounds is where the light enters us” – Rumi

 Spent 2+ years fixing me – mindset, emotional health, physical health -> building awareness, noticing emotions, thoughts -> letting them pass through – identifying the ego/fear voices -> noticing what it says – how it shows up – fear – hurting my body – shoulder pain -> chest tightness, shaping even how I interact with the world –

Hiding, shrinking, shame…oh am not enough
Striving extra hence -> to be enough.

And then one day, I was practicing, impressed on by the ‘Litany of Fear’, I was practicing, this fear – to pass through me – fear of abandonment this time – letting it hurt – scare me – and then hopefully pass through. And how it hurt. It does what it does. Painting the darkest most bleak future -> asking me to act out of urgency – gripping me - till I let out a prayer.

 

God, please free me from these fears, from these wounds, these childhood wounds or maybe those of even before in time…

…and then it hit me. These childhood wounds are my gifts. They shape me, for who I am, who I ought to be, my purpose/destiny in the world. My biggest source of power and my greatness and my light.

“Wound is where the Light enters us”

Like Harry Potter. His scar – it hurt, made him feel different, people mocking him, stopping him from living a “normal” life, he hid it -> but it was Maqtub. It marked his destiny. Held the answers, the path and the power -> to defeat Voldemort.

Yes the scar hurt, but then, that’s what made him -> Harry Potter.

Love thy wounds.

Be thankful from them.

 

P.S. Also majorly inspired by post Dune watching session!